This picture says it all. I heart PC '07.

Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Stop this train
I want to get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I will never stop this train

even though not as many people really read xanga as often, i know that one person does and she is very near and dear to my heart.  I love her to death and i want her to know why she's so amazing and the following are things that i totally LOVE LOVE LOVE about her.....

*the way you laugh
*the way you never have a real smile in a picture
*the way you take a "break" from soft drinks, but everytime we eat together you ask what i'm drinking and get a big gulp of it
*the way you never wipe your yogurt tops off so you're why the box is gross
*the way we can have the exact same test that we haven't studied for, but we stay up til 2 talking anyway
*the way you rock out to 80's jams and 90's pop hits
*the way you aren't that great at PDA patrol driving, but you still do it anyway
*the way we talk about doing projects, but we still haven't done anything
*the way you "do a great man voice"
*the way that you say "yea yea" and now i can't stop saying you
*the way you and i are in the same pledge class
*the way we do our own stick dance
*the way you make fun of spore's ugg boots
*the way you push bustin into the corn stalk and later on give him a recycled shirt
*the way we love the same certain "themes"
*the way you freak out when John Lowery calls to bug safety AGAIN
*the way you and i come to the rescue of the same John Lowery when safety holds his keys for ransom and revenge
*the way you call me baby tori when i'm whining
*they way we sneak in to places when we don't want to be marked
*the way you can always tell something is wrong with me
*the way you make me laugh when i have a bad day just by being you
*the way you are so loyal to your friends
*the way you are you, no more no less, and that girl is AMAZING!

So Miss REBEKAH CARAWAY (reba or becki for short) remember you are AMAZING and I'm blessed to have such a wonderful friend like you! I hope this brightens your day because you always can brighten mine!! LOVE YA!

so i turn 21 in less that 12 hours.

i have officially hit freak out mode.

21 sounds so much older than 20.

yet i still feel like the 18 year old who started college yesterday it seems. 

i know i have changed over the past few years.

some for the better.

some for not.

i look around and smile at the friends i have made.

but cry for the friends i've lost.

i have learned so much.

but i know there is much more.

i hope 21 is a good year.

so i'm sick.
i can't shake it.